had i mentioned that i am head over heels for the boy? and have no idea what to do about it, especially as i'm no-where near convinced that he's anywhere near head over heels for me. which honestly scares the crap out of me.
i'm in a really weird mood this morning - incase that excuses anything i write.
i'm cross, and confused. and just generally feeling like an unpleasant person :p
but im going to get dressed and go downstairs and hope that the little people put a smile on my face. but at the same time he is down there. and then my brain is over-ridden by some other supernatural force and i may not be able to just enjoy being downstairs.
j's gone to the uk for the weekend. which is good, because hopefully she'll come back feeling a little better. i miss my mommy though, and wish i was there instead. i think in the new year im going to home for a few weeks. and then i need to decide on a date where i no longer officially am working here. im thinking end of april is reasonable. and then its a question of what i do to make money, do i go home? im kind of leaning towards doing just that. when i told j i was going home for new year there was kind of an irritation in the response. that annoyed me.
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