Friday, 11 December 2009

i hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean

so today was my mommys birthday, and we did some girly shopping and then went to the ostsee therme, which is like... a giant sauna complex with some pools and jacuzzis, but mainly just saunas. however in germany/most european countries, people do this naked, and in most places it is actually compulsorary to be naked. now personally..not game for getting naked and prancing around but i figured i could manage it in a towel, which seemed to be quite acceptable..and once i had gotten over the fact that everyone was naked (oh yes, my first exposure to any kind of naked men)(yes i know im naive)it was actually quite pleasant and i had this kind of glowy feeling going on, and it was just nice, and i would definately go back again.
we then went out for dinner at the remise, which was really lovely. im trying to be good, so that i look fabulous in the worlds most amaing black dress that i possess, becuase i have quite a few, but in my opinion this one is perhaps even better than my ballgown, but i could do with losing a couple of pounds to make it look even more spectacular. so i had a salad and chicken strips, mum had pasta with gorgonzola sauce, and julie had a rump steak, which was secretly what i wanted, but im trying to use a bit of willpower, just until the new year. this does however mean that i am going to have to be quite controlled over christmas, which i suppose is ok...
i need to get my arse into gear on the christmas presents front, but i have made a little bit of a start over the last couple of days.

today i am filled with this kind of hunger...not like food hunger, like i just am feeling really inspired and ..i dont know. i feel a little bit like, im beginning to settle into my skin, and realise that you dont have to be a size 8 or 10 to be radiant. i went out this evening, and wore heels, AND lipstick, and i didnt feel the slightest bit seld concious, in fact i felt fantastic, i think im a bit at peace with me. which is nice..

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